Today a professor told me that the only way I'm ever going to succeed is to think negative.
The only way I'll do well in life, have money, and keep a job, is to worry, stress about everything that could go wrong, and work myself to death trying to make everything run smoothly.
In class, I just couldn't take him seriously after that. I mean, lets go back in time two years and that sentence above pretty much described me. I was a perfectionist. I never missed class. I'd cry if I got anything below an A. and I worried so much about disappointing everyone around me; mom, grandma, professors, etc.
It didn't make me happy and, it took a long time, but I finally got out of that cycle of negative thought.
And he wants me to get it back...
Our culture is very strict in how we go things. Things need to be built a specific way and done a certain way. There are rules, regulations, protocols, and guidelines for everything! It's very strict, rigid, and super stressful.
My professor asked us to imagine where we wanted to be in 20 years. And he told us that in 20 years we'd be thinking back to that class and wishing we'd pushed ourselves even harder in all of our classes, because this time (college) is where everything important is happening. These four years are defining the rest of our lives.
I wrote down my thoughts, knowing better than to argue with this particular professor because he'd just call me naive, and smiled to myself. Because, just a few years ago I'd have listened to his every word. Though, I wouldn't have needed to make myself work harder, because I'd already have made myself sick trying to be the image of someone else's perfect.
You know where I want to be in 20 years?
I want to be doing yoga, writing, and traveling.
It's not much different than where I am now, except 20 years from now I'll be published and people might actually read this blog haha
I wish my culture wasn't so "GO GO GO!" I wish professors weren't actually starting a class telling their students to be negative.
I hope that someone reads this post and will realize that grades aren't the make or break of a life. I hope someone will think about what they want in 20 years and be true to their dream instead of following the path carved out by someone else.
I wish people followed passion, not dollar signs.
Be true to yourself; that's my message today. Know what you want and go for it, because nothing is more beautiful or amazing or enriching than following your passions. Because, if you're not passionate about what you're doing than things become gray.
Find the color and hold onto it :)
Better yet! Make the color :)
Don't be afraid to disagree with someone you look up to if they're trying to force you down a path that doesn't feel right. They're giving you the tools and options, but you always get to choose :)